Simplicity.

The start of my year, was at best very messy. In all senses of the word.

I'd been caught up in a whirl-wind of lust & romance, then it was gone. I'd lost my self in a way.

I wasn't sure where I fitted in.

It was all very surreal and I'm not even sure if I could explain it to you properly.

I hadn't realised how selfish I had been whilst caught up in my bubble of happiness. I had forgotten how important it was to do things for yourself. I was selfish to my friends, I'd preferred to spend time with him rather than you guys. It was not until he was gone that I realised you had all packed up and gone too.

January was the loneliest month I can remember. It was a good start to the year, right.

It eventually subsided and things were on the mends, school went back.

I started to feel normal again, still I was unsatisfied with things.

I needed a change in my life, things became to routine and it bored me.

I moved schools, probably the best thing I've done in a while; although I miss certain things/people.

I lost a friend in December, someone who I regarded quite highly. Being foolishness & naive cost me that friendship, to what I thought was for good. I have never told her this, alas, I missed her almost every day. I didn't know what I had until it was gone. The night before my birthday, she wished me well and told me to have a good one & we've only been improving since then.

The last two months have been fairly complicated, it amuses me how something so small blew out of proportion. It also saddens me, that I lost a friend out of it. And if you read this Tim, I'm sorry I disappointed you, bud.
All I can say is, it was a mistake to think that it'd be worth it... clearly wasn't.

Right now, things are actually pretty good.

I have the the two main people in my life.
Jessica R

&
Ree Smith.

A few others keep me happy, also.

Keeping this simple is key.

Right now:

I'm content, drinking my coffee, listening to music, being alone in my house.